It was less than a year ago when I went for the NUS Choir audition. Back then, I was full of enthusiasm, felicity and eagerness to learn. Now, all the passion in the world could refill that jar of joy and goodness. What is left is an empty figurative husk. Everyday, I am less inclined to be on time for NUS Choir practice.
I thought I could make long lasting friends in NUS Choir. I thought it was a conducive place for me to learn to sing. I thought I would be one of those proud choristers standing in the Esplanade to contribute my voice to the melody and harmony of our songs.
Well, I guess those are just assumptions which I make up in my all-too-ideal mind. I think I am gonna quit NUS Choir. There is no raison detre for me to be there. One less soprano would not make a difference to them as much as it would to me. To me, I would freer to indulge in my spare time, which have been used up for that one CCA, which I do not particularly enjoy as compared to others. I would not need to come back from the NUS Choir practice, feeling like nothing is accomplished for the day since the songs were sung with so much technicality yet so little emotion.
Digressing from that, I sometimes marvel at how Raffles Hall choir managed to survive the catastrophe of this academic year. Compared to NUS Choir, we lack people and skills. Moreover, there is no one who could teach effectively on the right techniques for singing. All that could be shared with the choristers are experiences from practicing in other choirs. Shu Ying was already cracking her head worrying about whether RH Choir would just die out.
Nonetheless, we manage to pull through. Although caroling was not exactly perfect, it promised a great deal of fun in the form of mistakes we did and the laughs we had in response to that. I dare say that it has made us closer as a choir as much as it had set me apart from NUS Choir. I feel more at home in RH Choir than in NUS Choir.
Recently, I performed for both choirs in Amplitude. The difference in both choirs were remarkable. In NUS Choir, the songs were well sung yet so emotionless. One friend said that I looked like a snob, with only my mouth moving and my face entirely expressionless. On the hand, the singing experience in RH Choir was fun, fun and fun. I really thought we screwed up on May It Be but it turned out to be okay. I enjoyed myself thoroughly swaying along with the songs. In fact, we did way better than most hall choirs which had more people than we had.
To say RH Choir is as good as NUS Choir would be outright foolish. However, singing for RH Choir involves much more conviction and feeling for the songs compared to NUS Choir. What is a song without emotion, even so much technical perfection? The crowd is obviously more wowed at NUS Choir's performance than at RH Choir. But I am definitely not the one in the crowd.
